Singleness Of Heart

I had a yard sale today to raise money for Haiti. My family helped a lot; I was so glad they pitched in. I was a lot less prepared than I thought I was, and we really didn’t have a lot of people. We are doing it again tomorrow, and I am working until noon. Mom is home tonight from California, so she will be able to help in the morning. I am glad my parents are home! We made about $80… hoping to do better tomorrow.

Anthony went to a graduation celebration today, he’s been gone since noon and has to be out until late. I am missing him and praying for him, trying to give him to God and NOT worrying. He doesn’t belong to me as I like to think he does; he belongs to God. Oh boy is it hard! We talk everyday on the phone, and have only gone maybe 2 days in the past 6 months without it, and those times we’ve texted. I’m not used to having him gone, but I need to get used to it. After we are married and he is gone at work, I’ll be at home and the temptation will be to worry about him. I want to be able to let God take care of my husband, and when I feel the worry coming on I want to go to my knees.

Anthony proposed on February 23rd 2008. We are getting married September 12th; One year from the day we met.

My domain name expired and I had no idea, because I bought it with one of my old email addresses. I thought it was connected to our hosting and everything was taken care of, but apparently it expired a year ago and some Australian company bought it and hosted it for free for one year. I had until April 8th to figure this out or they would have been rid of it. Praise the Lord, for $34 I was able to buy it back from them. (A better deal than most companies like theirs would give). So, every time I have updated in the past few months, it has simply disappeared. I finally cought on, and now that everything is settled I can update again.

About the emotional charge from physical situations, listen: You can save yourself a lot of stress and sickness just by taking charge of your emotions. When you make a physical problem an emotional problem, you have just placed human value on your surroundings. Don’t let a broken plate or lack of a money or anything that does not merit the value of your human sympathies take control of you. Save the emotional grief for situations where it is appropriate, such as a death or close call injury. Thank the Lord for what he has given you in the physical world, and be emotionally responsible. Everytime someone in the home is upset, it causes more turmoil then you might think. Save getting upset for really worthy things, and positively influence the emotions of your family.

Do you have 10 minutes? Michael Billings; 1988-2007, A Son of Hope, An Unparalleled Defender of the Faith, and a Bright Shining Star in the Kingdom of God

Always (In memory of Michael Billings)

Michael is my generation, a young man my own age who was dedicated to the Lord Jesus Christ. Listen to the words in his only sermon and the song written in memory of him. Michael has a recorded voice of God’s truth to pass on. If you are inspired by his words, if you are intrigued by this young man who lived his life for Jesus and was taken at 19 years old, please pass it on. “Satan does not care how holy your intentions are, as long as they are put off until tomorrow.”…

My home land calls me,
through the wind and the dust I can hear her crying.
Devotion is strong, Honor is sweet.
My Country leads me on to war and defeat.

I can’t look back, nothing will follow,
onward foward is a soldiers motto,
I keep my gun loaded, but hope I don’t need it.
Fear stares me right in the face,

Death laughs behind me…

I cringe but keep moving and listen
to my beloved sing her sorrows to me.
“Come home” she says, but it’s to late.
I’ve been bitten with war and hate.

I will not leave ’til love lays at her feet.
When dying and suffering
have made their end, I will
come home to my sweet land.

Written in 2004 I believe? I was inspired by something I watched about South Africa. Cry the beloved country was the name of a book.

I am looking for a list of qualifications that I wrote out for my future husband, and also for myself. I looked through several paper piles in the living room, didn’t find it but found some treasures including that poem. I’m going to look in the library I guess.

I am going twigging this morning, which is a form of tree hunting. The Eichers are going way out somewhere to find a tree, and I am going with them. Likely to find a tree that is less full then what you find in the domesticated tree industry, but it will be ony $5 for the permit and Matthew will haul it back for us.

As for head covering, i have been challenged by the words if a friend. Do I really understand the issue? Do you really understand the issue? The Bible says that a woman’s hair is given to her for a covering, and that it is a shame for her to cut it short. I read it last night before going to bed, but felt like I should look it up in the Geneva Bible, because of the way it is worded, some of it could go either way.

1 Corinthians 11:15 “But if a woman have long hair, it is a praise unto her: for her hair is given her for a (1)covering”

In the Geneva notations, from 1, it says “To be a covering for her, and such as should procure another.” Dictionary.com indicates that Procure means: To get by special effort, To bring about,To obtain.

Verse 10 “(1)Therefore ought the woman to have (2)power on her head, because of the (3)Angels.”

The notations here are “(1)The conclusion: women must be covered, to show by this external sign their subjection. (2)A covering which is a token of subjection. (3)What meaneth, I do not yet understand.”

The Geneva notations may or may not be correct, but it is obvious that the 16th Century Bible Translators believed head-covering to be a sign of subjection. Whether by hair or by cloth, can you tell? Not to take lightly the fact that it says her hair is a covering that “should procure another” and “women must be covered“.

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Our family went to the grand opening of Joe Anderson Agency in Boise. Joe is an insurance agent with Allstate insurance, and a big supporter of MAF - Mission Aviation Fellowship. His goal was to benefit MAF, by inviting them to be a part of his big day. He encouraged people to find out more about the ministry. There were a number of people involved with MAF who were there to talk with. One man was a veteran pilot for MAF, he had flown in Lesotho for 13 years and spent 16 years in Africa. His son Aaron was born in Lesotho, Aaron and his brother Luke showed up before we left. I asked Aaron how he liked growing up in Africa, he said he loved it. We asked a few questions about living in South Africa, and got some good answers.

Today I decided to look up Lesotho on You Tube and found some interesting videos. One involving permaculture, got me onto a video series from a permacululture expert called “The Permaculture Concept”. It’s very very interesting.

Can you believe it? My best friend is married. She really is Mrs. Owen… and for the first time ever, I got to meet scienceguy, an old internet buddy from Deny Yourself Forums, (Rest in Peace). I met Evan online when he was still 15, now he is 22 and we’ve met in real life. He was one of the people I really wanted to meet someday, because he talked faith. Having met him, I believe he walks faith as well. Evan is Chris’s older brother, and Chris’s name was JDEERMAN back in the days of CTZ and foruming. Me and my siblings were his online + phone friends, and we’d often talk to him late at night and try to encourage him to walk with Jesus. Kylie went away to school, and so did Chris. The same year, the same school. It’s been a couple of years, Chris is walking with Jesus, and is now the husband of a wonderful girl. I praise the Lord for what he has done in their lives, and more for what he will do with their futures.

I was honored to meet Chris’s friends Ryan and Jeff, as well as his brother Evan. All three young men were respectful and godly in attitude and conduct. I thank the Lord for the opportunity to meet them, as well as to stand up with them in witness of the vows taken by Chris and Kylie. Jeff sang a duet with me for the ceremony and he accompanied our voices with his guitar playing - which was very good. I enjoyed singing with him, he has a good voice and a humble spirit before the Lord. God be with him on the mission field.

I made a mistake the other day, well I make them everyday, but particularly in fashion. The Lord has really been working on me in the area of dress, and it’s been really neat to see that God actually does have preferences for what I should wear. Since I’ve been reading my bible more and making God my highest priority, he’s really been able to show me a lot of things that I’ve never asked him about. One thing is t-shirts, and well, some t-shirts are better then others, and I have been trying to pay attention to the “naked feeling”. You know what I’m talking about right? It’s usually called shame. Anyway, I’ve decided that I should pay strict attention to the naked feeling. As far as tops go, I’ve determined basically where the line is, (and it’s a lot higher than just scant of cleavage come to find out). Anyway, so with the cold weather I wanted to wear two shirts, one was a t-shirt which I had determined was high enough cut and one was a nice color to go with it that had three-quarter sleeves. It was low cut and had embroidered flowers right on the front where I thought it drew to much attention, so I opted to wear it underneath. I didn’t think to see if the pattern of the flowers was poking through… They were, and after I got to the party, by the time I had seen myself in the mirror it was too late. The flower patterns were in the wrong places and I just prayed that the guys would be blind. I eventually put my coat on to go outside, and I really felt clothed again. Odd, I was wearing clothes but I felt naked. Truth is, it woke me up to the fact that God wants me to pay attention to details about the way I dress. It’s not the spiffy part he’s worried so much about, it’s the modesty. Am I dressing for modesty or fashion?

MAF got a new plane in Haiti, a 1977 Cessna T207A Read about it. There was an article in the Statesman a couple of days ago about MAF and what they are doing. Also they are getting some new planes that run on Jet fuel instead of avgas, which is a big deal because it will save them a lot of money in the long run and keep them from losing ministry opportunities due to lack of fuel when avgas goes obsolete.

I would like to return to Haiti in January with a LOT of flannel to make diapers. Please pray for me and ask the Lord to supply the financial help that will be needed as well as the flannel.

I have been trying to make my personal study time with the Lord my top priority for about a week, and I’ve come to realize how far I have kicked it under the rug. The Lord has not been very high on my priority list at all, even though I am praying often “Lord I want to do your will”. He’s been trying to tell me, to just read His word… and I haven’t been listening. Well, I’ve started to listen and I’m getting results!

I have a struggle with guys lately like I haven’t seen before in my life… It’s a combonation of hanging around people who have no reserve and accepting them without acknowledging their position vs mine. Well anyway, the Lord is helping me and a couple of nights ago he sent a messenger my way. There wasn’t any reason for him to say such a thing unless God opened his mouth. He payed with a crisp $50 bill, (I remember running it through my hand and it making a crispy sound) he didn’t seem to place any importance on the sunglasses he bought, and it was dark out. On his way out he turned and said “stay away from crazy men…[pointing up] and look to the Lord.” I thought it was odd, but at the same time it was a good thing. I don’t remember him coming in, but he couldn’t have known that the man I was talking to just before him was “crazy” and that I was struggling with my thoughts toward him, could he?

If God asks you to say something to somebody you don’t know, just say it. It could be God would use you for an Angel.